The manuscript of survival – part 281

Once again this post rang true to me so much that I couldn’t keep it just for myself. Please find the original from here.

 

For many of you, the upheavals you have been experiencing lately, indeed are maybe still in the midst of, will signal an important departure from much of what you have looked upon as an integral part of your life. For now, everything that does not serve you anymore will be slowly but surely extracted from your life, but as most of these things have very deep roots indeed, it will not be a very swift process. You see, much of this are issues that have been allowed to bury themselves deep, deep within your psyche in some way, and as such, this extraction process will not be without its challenges. For, as we have talked about so many times earlier, your whole human set up has been designed in such a way it craves stability more than anything, and now, that is the last thing you can expect. So these bouts of energetic cleanups coming in now will have you all tossing and turning from all of this intense removal, so the very ground beneath your feet will seem to be less than stable at times too.

Let us explain. As it always is with these energetic immersions you are once again in the middle of, they will seem to disturb so much, and your equilibrium will be almost guaranteed to be lost for longer or shorter periods during all of this. We speak both of the more emtional processes, but also of purely physical ones. So you will feel yourself stumbling more than once during the next few days, as everything you have on the inside, and indeed also on the outside, will seem to be endlessly shifting around, and in addition it will do so seemingly out of synch with everything else. So expect to lose your footing in more ways than one, but know also that if, or rather when, you find yourself falling to your knees in some ways, you will always be able to get back up on your feet.

We tell you this as a reminder that this is not about breaking you down, it is in fact all about rebuilding you, but this process can easily be misconstrued as the other way around. For you will all in some ways suffer the consequences from this, in many ways brutal, process. But again we say, this is not to make you suffer, this is only to ensure that you will emerge victorious at the other end of this journey. So try to stay calm, even if the storms you will face up ahead will have you seriously considering if you will be able to weather them at all. And please know that there is no shame in holding on to something in order to help you stay on your feet throughout all of this. And when we say something, we might as well rephrase that to someone. But please choose well in whom you turn to in all of this, for a wise soul will know to choose another wise soul for comfort, whether it be one of your fellow men, or one of us. For if you choose to cling onto someone that has already succumbed to their own fear, they will not help to keep you standing, they will only ensure that you will not be able to stand up ever again after immersing yourself in this sea of fear they are apt to create. So again we say be sure to connect with your true brothers and sisters in this, lest you should accidentally pick someone much less buoyant in order to help you to stay afloat in these days ahead. For you will all need support in some way through all of this, so it will do no good if you choose to latch onto someone already going under in their own sea of despair.

Again, we come to give you encouragement, not to take away any last vestiges of hope that you might have. For this is not an easy ride, not in any way, but never forget you are more than able to complete it. For that powerhouse you all harbour inside has only just started to come alive, but it will gain momentum for each day now. So do not think you have taken your last breath, even if you may at some point get the wind knocked out of you, for you have just begun to breathe freely, without the restrictions that have been holding you down for eons. So again we say, focus on that breath, for it is indeed more important than you can understand now, and it will help you through even the worst of these squalls that are currently hovering on the horizon. For you are indeed build of strong stuff dear ones, they very stuff the stars are made of, and you cannot be snuffed out as easily as you mayhaps think at the moment. You will continue to shine brightly, even through the darkest hour of the storm, and as such, you will also help others. And by your light, others will also find their way to a safe harbour, and by your grace, you will do the same too. For you have not lost yourself yet, and you will not do so either, as long as you keep your gaze averted from all of those trying to lure you into their deep pool of fear.

So stay afloat, and fasten your eyes on all of those other islands of love that are right there beside you, and together you will soon feel your feet touching solid ground once again. And you will know with all of your heart that you can never ever be dragged down into that deep void of emptiness that so many others so willingly have lost themselves. For you will emerge onto dry land, and you will do so only to discover that this is indeed familiar ground. For you have been here before, but only in your dreams, but now, it will turn out to be reality.

The lack of trust

Life on the blog has been rather quiet. I know I say it in each post every time lately. Still, I do apologize for the quiet times. Truth be told, I’ve not been in the best of moods lately. Life has been a rollercoaster, and finally I feel like I’m losing my grip. But this is not something I want to post. It is not something I tell anyone really.

I have come to notice that I don’t trust people anymore. It takes years for me to build that trust with someone, and if things fall apart after those years, I don’t take it lightly. In fact, I start thinking to myself why did I even try for all those years, just to end up here in the first place? Sure, I don’t regret it – I try not to regret anything I do in my life. It just hurts me too much when the relationship I’ve worked for ends up being lost. (Relationship to me can be any relationship, partner, friend, family member etc.)

Then there are those people who I adore and want to be closer to in my life, and we once were, but not anymore. I’m starting to think I live in some kind of illusion world, where things go the way I’ve wanted them to. Not in reality, of how things actually are. I sometimes even make things up just so I feel better. This has started to happen more and more lately, which is leading me to think I live in an illusion.

Someone once told me that we get caught up in this worldly way of life, and because we don’t see certain things we believe it not to be true or happening. When in fact, it is the other way around, this worldly way of life IS the illusion and things we don’t see but we think are happening, are really happening.

That is where I, myself, get very confused. It is unfortunate but this world is rather egotistical and derives on money. One should have good education. One should be career focused and yet find time to have a family but not more than 2 children. I have always had my beliefs, and the way I see things. My beliefs are compressed completely by the society. I am afraid that because of my strong beliefs, one day I will go crazy because I cannot distinguish “reality” and “illusion” anymore.

How does this relate to me not trusting people? In the way that I cannot open up to people about my beliefs as I fear for their judgement. I fear that people think I’m crazy. I sometimes think I’m crazy, why wouldn’t someone else think that as well? I judge myself. I’m hard on myself. I find it hard to love myself, to put myself first, when happiness comes from within.

I also get down on myself for when I’m having a hard time. I’m generally a positive person. It’s just lately I’ve been having a hard time finding happiness. I’ve realized I love to love, and if I don’t have someone to love I question my whole existence. I can be independent no problem, as long as I know that at the end of the day, I can go home to the person I love the most in this world.

There is nothing more pure in all of existence than genuine, authentic love. I love loving. I should start trusting as well. Maybe one day.

 

Fear Not

Today I’ve noticed that so many people are feeling low. I look at my facebook and the news feed of my friends, I mainly see people being negative, sad, frustrated, irritated, mad, or something of the sort. So this leaves me thinking, what is going on? Is today just a bad day for everyone, or is there something else that’s going on? Is it the collective consciousness that we start feeling what the other person feels?

 

I want to Google this but how would I even begin to form the words. What the Universe wants me to see, I’ll find it, and somehow I’ll find the right words to Google as well. By chance, I find myself seeing one of my favorite blogs on the list; Lucas 2012 Infos. There is an article in there that catches my eye; Ruth Ryden And the Master of Light, where Ruth asks a couple of questions from some Masters to help us understand what’s going on. I’m not going to post the whole article here. However, I did find a part that was quite interesting to me.

 

 

Dear Masters:  So many reports from readers of the feeling of emotional shifting within themselves and the world around them, that it becomes obvious that this IS happening.  Channels are reporting these effects all over the internet.  Please explain what is going on and how long this will last.

MASTERS:   “Does everything lately seem to be slightly off, your interests changing drastically, television productions seem too violent, too absurd, or really irritating?  Have your tastes in food, changed recently?  Has there been an opening in your concepts of who you are or what other people are like changing?   You are not imagining this.

Your awareness of the unusual weather patterns and plates moving about  in the crust of the Earth is becoming an actual shifting in the consciousness of humanity.    You are, and will be, seeing yourselves and others differently as you go through your normal lives.  Why?

As we have spoken about before many times, the word “frequencies” has to do with this.  As the planet’s place in the solar system has been changing slightly, so the frequencies that hold it there have produced numerous quakes and volcanic upsets.  Inner heating is melting the huge ice covers around the world; sea levels are rising.    It is not so hard to see then, that the consciousness  of humanity is also being  affected by this change in frequencies.

How does this affect you personally?   Have old memories started to pop up at odd times, perhaps things you really don’t want to remember?   Or perhaps some really beautiful memories that have slipped by for a long time?   Do you feel like crying for no reason at all?   Memories are becoming a constant companion for many of you, and, for those who need memory to work efficiently,  short and long-term memories are becoming easier to hang on to and use.  Computers are but an extension of human memory, after all.

Emotions are something else again.  The political battleground that is so necessary to keep your governments going is becoming a real irritant to many of you, prompting you to turn off the TV and find something more realistic to watch.  Emotions are running very high now, as they always do at such a time, but the stronger frequencies are causing even the most experienced politicians to say things they are sorry for the next day!   Your emotional well being is being massaged in a way that has never happened before on Planet Earth.  Your lifetime this time around is being magnified in all ways, according to the path you have chosen.  Your highs are higher, and your lows are almost unendurable.  Tempers flare easily and there is an inner need for something, something, but what?

People need people and the search for companionship becomes a necessity now, for someone else who understands what you are feeling.  Then, when everything is going well, negative thoughts flare up and ruin the whole thing.   It is very important at this time of transition that humanity makes a real effort to understand that emotions control most of your thoughts and feelings; this will be hard to manage for the next year or so.   To do so, it is needful to just stop for a few seconds or minutes to realize there is something different that is making you feel uncomfortable; allow yourself to see each situation very realistically instead of emotionally.  This will give you time to find ways to handle any situation without blowing it!

Those of you who are more spiritually aware feel this shifting as an energetic opportunity  and are, perhaps, in a situation where you can see and feel new ways of thinking and feeling that others cannot.  Poets are filled with new images, and writers are coming up with subjects they never thought of before.  Athletes are finding new strength and ways to control their bodies than they did before.  Different sounds of music are drumming through the heads of musicians, bringing new sounds to humanity that are harmonious instead of the raucous sounds that fill the airwaves now.   Scientists are, and will be, breaking through the difficult realities of space and time.  Nature itself is changing in ways that will be wondrous to behold.  New varieties of plants are appearing as ancient ones seem to fade away or change.

Nature itself is changing, as is becoming quite obvious of course.  Animals are going through slight physical  transformations and their mental awareness is increasing.  Pets either need more loving, or are becoming more into themselves, feeling uncomfortable perhaps.  Abnormalities in some wild animals will be observed; new species will be encountered very soon all over the world.

The frequencies of any life form are nature’s way of creation.  This is not something to be fearful of now, it is creation itself giving humanity and all life on Earth a new face and a new chance to find life more fulfilling.   Let your thoughts flow and your emotions react to what is new and different.   Yes, it works the other way, too.  There are those who will use the new energy in negative ways for their own selfishness and need for power and wealth.  This is as it has always been, and always will be in matter.  See it for what it is, and walk away.

Instead, be very close with your inner self now.  Be aware of your feelings and know that your soul is within this body for a very important reason.  Meditation may seem to be old hat, so to speak, but is now very important to allow the mind to meld with the higher consciousness that is really you.  Your path in life will be much easier and enjoyable when there is no conflict between your soul memories and your everyday thoughts and actions.  .We are always with each and every soul being in human form, helping and answering prayers all the time.  Remember, “Ask and you shall receive”.

 

 

I for one, have been quite out of my comfort zone lately. I feel restless, highly uncomfortable, and quite alone really. As I start thinking why this would be, it’s because I’m not comfortable by being by myself. In other words, I’m not ready to face myself and accept myself as I am. A couple of months ago, I couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror! When I would see my body in the mirror, I just kept thinking “what a fatty you are” and all I kept seeing was cellulite. The thought of looking in my own eyes, well scared me. Now as I have glimpses of myself in the mirror, I’m not so negative of my body image anymore. I find myself looking deep into my eyes, seeing the beauty of my soul. The first times, it has made me cry. It’s getting easier and easier as I do this exercise.

 

 

For all of my life I’ve had to learn to deal with loneliness. I’ve had friends, and group of friends, many of them have come and gone. For some periods of time I’ve had a couple of best friends that have been close to me physically, but mainly they are all so far away. This is something that I’ve had to deal with and learn to accept it. For the first time in my life, I’m now in a situation where I can’t cling on to anybody, not even myself. I’m in a situation where I need to accept myself as I am or I’m going to end up unhappy. Through this experience, I’ve realized that I am uncomfortable because I don’t accept myself, because I don’t love myself, for who I am. I’ve always been scared that everybody will leave me and I’m left all alone. And now I find myself in that exact position. The restlessness, uncomfortable, and loneliness all come from myself. Just as only I can make myself happy, only I can make myself really unhappy – it goes both ways.

 

 

After reading the post I was talking above, has left me thinking I’m not alone in this. I feel as though so many of us are feeling the exact same way. Today has been highly uncomfortable for so many of us, and maybe it is because we finally have to face ourselves. It is not an easy task to do. We will have to go through all the emotions but it is only normal. Do not shy away from the emotions but embrace them, let them flow freely. Only when you start fully accepting yourself, is when you truly will achieve happiness. That is also when you won’t be afraid to be alone anymore.

 

 

Why today has been such a low vibrational, negative day, I don’t know. Just let the emotions pass as if you’re driving a road and go past sunshine, rain, theme parks, stores, and so on. Start working on Yourself TODAY as you have been postponing it for long enough! It will only get harder for yourself from now on. Take baby steps, do what makes you feel comfortable at a pace you are comfortable with. It may take awhile, which is completely fine, as long as you make the conscious decision to work on this.

 

You can start by saying this; I am willing to change the pattern in my consciousness that is creating this condition. 

 

If you need any assistance or help with working on yourself, your self-esteem, or anything for that matter, please do not hesitate to contact me! You can leave me a comment here or if you want to have a private conversation with me, you can email me at dailyvisualinspiration44@gmail.com  I sincerely want to help you anyway I can! All of our conversations will be confidential!

Nine Loves

THIS IS ALSO MY 100TH POST!!!!!!!

{Nine}
I love music. My taste in music is quite ecclectic – reggae, dancehall, house, dance, pop, r&b, triphop, dubstep, acid house, electronic, hiphop, acoustic, salsa, merengue, bachata, reggaetton, and the list goes on!

 

{Eight}
My guilty pleasure is reality TV, I just love it! I don’t like to have drama in my life, I’d much rather watch it. I love to watch all kinds of TV shows.

 

{Seven}
I love anything spiritual, metaphysics, astrology, stones, numbers – you name it. Being involved in that world somehow gives me comfort and easeness, as weird as that may sound.

 

{Six}
I love Miami almost as much as I love the Caribbean! I’ve been obsessing over the two so much.. the dream still lives on!

 

{Five}
I absolutely love and adore Dolphins, I think they’re awesome! They’re smart, always smiling at you, and they’re just too adorable!

 

{Four}
I love Samoyeds! They’re the best dog breed in the whole wide world!! If dolphins were dogs, they’d definitely be Samoyeds!

 

{Three}
I love languages, cultures and travelling!

 

{Two}
I love to do things with my hands and fingers, be crafty and make my own stuff. What stops me, is I just don’t know how to make these sorts of things..

 

{One}
I love the few great friends I have, and I would do anything for these people!!

 

What do you love? Have you participated in the challenge yourself? Let me know in the comments ;)

 

Visual Inspirations (I)

I haven’t been posting much lately sorry for that! I want to share some of the things I’ve seen that have caught my eye and inspired me in one way or another. None of these images are mine, I have come across them on various other websites. Enjoy!

Liberating Changes

I’ve seen it first-hand (or is it second-hand when it doesn’t happen to you but to someone else close to you) what the right kind of setting can do! Where I live now is not the right setting for me, I know that now. I realized it when I came back from my holiday the other day. I can see myself having the potential of being confident, down-to-earth, “businesswoman” (though I don’t know if I’d be one..who knows at this point though), loving, proud. That is how I feel I would be in the right setting. Not this whiny, emotional, unstable with a sorry-for-herself-attitude that I have now. I’ve never been uptight, nor will I ever become uptight, I’m way too relaxed for that! I know I can become anything I want, it just won’t happen here. I’ve realized that there are even karmic ties with this country, just not entirely sure what they are as of yet. I just know that I’ve come here to learn some very valuable and important lessons, and now it is time for me to move on.

 

As I stepped out of the airport, I realized for the first time I’m not sorry for myself, I’m not anxious, I’m not anything negative. I’m fired up, I want to leave here. The coming month will be a “vacation” month for me, although not much of a vacation as I will be working my not-so-little butt off. I think that this is the energy of Ace of Swords as well. What is even funnier, is that this will be January, and Ace is nr 1 – new year, new beginnings, new chances, new fire. With that said, as I came into the apartment, I actually felt a bit claustrophobic, I got anxious. I know that this is not the setting for me, it’s never been. It has been a setting of many lessons learned, very necessary ones. Immediately as I did come here, I started craving for chocolate, wanting to go back to the old ways of living. There is nothing about this country that makes me want to stay here. It has taught me everything I have needed to learn and now it’s time to move on. So, I’m ignoring the anxiety feeling and paying attention to the fire within me. Or will try my hardest to ignore it, and believe me, it’s not always so easy.

 

I had to go through in my head, most things that happened while I was on my holiday – the good, the bad, the laughter, the cries. So, keeping in mind Ace of Swords – which is actually turning out to be the main card for January! – a lot will happen. I’m ready for it though. Now more than ever, I must get out of here. I have such fire to get things in motion, to reorganize my life and start acting upon my dreams. Dreams do change, and right now, I have a couple of dreams I do want to accomplish but just not entirely sure in which order. I am afraid of making them come my reality – I’m afraid of the unknown but I’m also a little afraid of what my family may think. However, it is my life that I’m living, not theirs. I have to do what I feel is the best thing for me, I have to make my own mistakes and move on from them. If I don’t, I won’t learn anything nor will I ever take any chances. If I don’t take chances, what am I living for then? I just need to have the courage to follow my heart. I need to follow my own advice of what I’ve been saying to following heart, however, it is always easier to advice someone than follow your own advice. I feel I am now ready to actually starting to live my dreams, one by one making each come true.

 

I am now ready to let go of the excess baggage I’ve been carrying these past couple of years. I’m actually now ready to make the change I have started this past summer. In fact, I want to let go of the physical things I have been keeping and bringing from one apartment to another as I have moved. I will throw out most things this coming month, only keeping a few items I still want/need. I have already thrown out so many things in my last move but not enough. I feel liberation from the old. I feel that I will let go of the final weight I carry on my shoulders everyday, making it a struggle for me to fully live. This may have been the reason why I have been feeling so anxious – I wasn’t ready to let go of it all yet, next to that I feel like I am reminded of my past in my daily life, something I cannot deal with. The wounds are still open. They have stopped bleeding but they haven’t even started healing yet. It is hard to be reminded of the past daily, especially when you want to let go and move on.

 

I have seen it first-hand how it is to live fully free from the old. This person is now blooming, they’ve become the person I had always seen there was the potential. This person is now a very confident, one who wants to make everyone laugh but still comfortable enough to be sensitive and show it occasionally. Another friend of mine has just recently moved quite far away from where they used to live, even if they’re struggling, they’re still enjoying life and the change they have decided to make. Even if I may be a few steps behind, I’m slowly feeling like I am becoming more and more myself, having the confidence to actually say that I am proud of my own creations. This is now becoming my reality. With the fire that is burning inside me, I now have a goal I’m working towards. I can now let go, or the time will come very soon. It still may be an emotional ride, somewhat hard even, if I just keep on seeing the glimpses of this, I know I will be fine. I know things will work out, and they will go the way they’re supposed to. I just need to follow my heart, and not let anyone bring me down, even if they think this may not be the right choice for me. I need to be confident and trust myself more.

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The lesson from me to you here is for you to follow your heart, do it confidently, and do not let anyone bring you down! Changes are now more and more evident, the world is changing. It is up to you how you will handle it – will you change along with it or fight against it. Let go of the old, of the excess. You are going in the right direction, you will know this if you listen to your heart. Things are going the way they’re supposed to, even if you think they’re not and even if it hurts more than you think you cannot handle. Do not fight it, let it come to you. You can cry all you want, I should know it is not an easy process – I’ve been battling since the summer! Trust me when I say, you will feel that much better, and best of all, liberated!