It’s now December. Can you believe it? It seems like yesterday it was the beginning of the year, and I should be preparing for the coming year. This will be a bit more personal blog than what I normally write, so please bare with me.
As the year is coming to an end, a lot of changes has happened to me personally. Have you noticed that a lot of people are going through somewhat bigger changes in their lives? Whether it is breaking off a long-term relationship of their partner, moving to another place even to a whole new country, or even starting something new like a study. I have been in a bad place, getting out of that situation in the beginning of the year, although it was hard for me, I needed to make that change. All the while I did have the best internship at the beginning of the year, which I’m so grateful for!
For the summer, I went back to my hometown to spend the whole summer with my parents and my family. This was the best summer for a long time! I met up with old friends, family members I hadn’t seen for years. It was a beautiful summer, with wonderful memories made. That was the time for me when I could truly take my time to focus on myself, and my healing process (as selfish as that sounds). In the beginning, I was so exhausted that I slept for two weeks straight. At the end, I didn’t need as much sleep anymore, I was a complete different person even my parents said so. I went back to the old me again, the ever-optimistic-and-positive person.
After summer, I was back to studying and to the country I don’t care for all that much. Immediately, I felt the negative energies, busy-ness, and stress soaking into me like a sponge. I was back to where I was in the beginning of the summer. I thought I wouldn’t be able to take it like that anymore. And I didn’t. I’ve learned to cope with it. I have my methods and my own ways of detaching myself, keeping my anxiety away. It hasn’t been an easy process. Sometimes I get sucked back into it again. The only difference now, is that I sort of know how to get out.
So, I’ve been changing. I’ve been growing up. I’ve been learning. But most of all, I have been in the process of healing myself from my past wounds that even takes back to my childhood. It’s a slow, and even painful process. It is something I need to go through though. This year, I have also delved into spirituality more, using my tarot, meditating, and learning a little bit about crystals and stones.
I don’t know what next year will bring, for me personally but also for the universe. No one does. All I know is that I’m going back to the more loving being that I once was. If I had it my way, I would hug every stranger on each corner. That’s the kind of loving person I am, call it naivete if you will.
As this year was a year of changes, I have a feeling that next year might be a year of love and unity.
I would like to finish by saying that within 5-10 years, if I am still alive in this world, I want to be living in one of the Caribbean islands. Not entirely sure where yet, but it is my dream to go there. Within that time, I have a couple of things that I want to achieve but they’re way too personal to share them here. I feel more at ease with this decision, and I know I’m working towards this goal.
Never underestimate the power of your imagination! Never underestimate the power of dreaming!