The manuscript of survival – part 281

Once again this post rang true to me so much that I couldn’t keep it just for myself. Please find the original from here.

 

For many of you, the upheavals you have been experiencing lately, indeed are maybe still in the midst of, will signal an important departure from much of what you have looked upon as an integral part of your life. For now, everything that does not serve you anymore will be slowly but surely extracted from your life, but as most of these things have very deep roots indeed, it will not be a very swift process. You see, much of this are issues that have been allowed to bury themselves deep, deep within your psyche in some way, and as such, this extraction process will not be without its challenges. For, as we have talked about so many times earlier, your whole human set up has been designed in such a way it craves stability more than anything, and now, that is the last thing you can expect. So these bouts of energetic cleanups coming in now will have you all tossing and turning from all of this intense removal, so the very ground beneath your feet will seem to be less than stable at times too.

Let us explain. As it always is with these energetic immersions you are once again in the middle of, they will seem to disturb so much, and your equilibrium will be almost guaranteed to be lost for longer or shorter periods during all of this. We speak both of the more emtional processes, but also of purely physical ones. So you will feel yourself stumbling more than once during the next few days, as everything you have on the inside, and indeed also on the outside, will seem to be endlessly shifting around, and in addition it will do so seemingly out of synch with everything else. So expect to lose your footing in more ways than one, but know also that if, or rather when, you find yourself falling to your knees in some ways, you will always be able to get back up on your feet.

We tell you this as a reminder that this is not about breaking you down, it is in fact all about rebuilding you, but this process can easily be misconstrued as the other way around. For you will all in some ways suffer the consequences from this, in many ways brutal, process. But again we say, this is not to make you suffer, this is only to ensure that you will emerge victorious at the other end of this journey. So try to stay calm, even if the storms you will face up ahead will have you seriously considering if you will be able to weather them at all. And please know that there is no shame in holding on to something in order to help you stay on your feet throughout all of this. And when we say something, we might as well rephrase that to someone. But please choose well in whom you turn to in all of this, for a wise soul will know to choose another wise soul for comfort, whether it be one of your fellow men, or one of us. For if you choose to cling onto someone that has already succumbed to their own fear, they will not help to keep you standing, they will only ensure that you will not be able to stand up ever again after immersing yourself in this sea of fear they are apt to create. So again we say be sure to connect with your true brothers and sisters in this, lest you should accidentally pick someone much less buoyant in order to help you to stay afloat in these days ahead. For you will all need support in some way through all of this, so it will do no good if you choose to latch onto someone already going under in their own sea of despair.

Again, we come to give you encouragement, not to take away any last vestiges of hope that you might have. For this is not an easy ride, not in any way, but never forget you are more than able to complete it. For that powerhouse you all harbour inside has only just started to come alive, but it will gain momentum for each day now. So do not think you have taken your last breath, even if you may at some point get the wind knocked out of you, for you have just begun to breathe freely, without the restrictions that have been holding you down for eons. So again we say, focus on that breath, for it is indeed more important than you can understand now, and it will help you through even the worst of these squalls that are currently hovering on the horizon. For you are indeed build of strong stuff dear ones, they very stuff the stars are made of, and you cannot be snuffed out as easily as you mayhaps think at the moment. You will continue to shine brightly, even through the darkest hour of the storm, and as such, you will also help others. And by your light, others will also find their way to a safe harbour, and by your grace, you will do the same too. For you have not lost yourself yet, and you will not do so either, as long as you keep your gaze averted from all of those trying to lure you into their deep pool of fear.

So stay afloat, and fasten your eyes on all of those other islands of love that are right there beside you, and together you will soon feel your feet touching solid ground once again. And you will know with all of your heart that you can never ever be dragged down into that deep void of emptiness that so many others so willingly have lost themselves. For you will emerge onto dry land, and you will do so only to discover that this is indeed familiar ground. For you have been here before, but only in your dreams, but now, it will turn out to be reality.

Liberating Changes

I’ve seen it first-hand (or is it second-hand when it doesn’t happen to you but to someone else close to you) what the right kind of setting can do! Where I live now is not the right setting for me, I know that now. I realized it when I came back from my holiday the other day. I can see myself having the potential of being confident, down-to-earth, “businesswoman” (though I don’t know if I’d be one..who knows at this point though), loving, proud. That is how I feel I would be in the right setting. Not this whiny, emotional, unstable with a sorry-for-herself-attitude that I have now. I’ve never been uptight, nor will I ever become uptight, I’m way too relaxed for that! I know I can become anything I want, it just won’t happen here. I’ve realized that there are even karmic ties with this country, just not entirely sure what they are as of yet. I just know that I’ve come here to learn some very valuable and important lessons, and now it is time for me to move on.

 

As I stepped out of the airport, I realized for the first time I’m not sorry for myself, I’m not anxious, I’m not anything negative. I’m fired up, I want to leave here. The coming month will be a “vacation” month for me, although not much of a vacation as I will be working my not-so-little butt off. I think that this is the energy of Ace of Swords as well. What is even funnier, is that this will be January, and Ace is nr 1 – new year, new beginnings, new chances, new fire. With that said, as I came into the apartment, I actually felt a bit claustrophobic, I got anxious. I know that this is not the setting for me, it’s never been. It has been a setting of many lessons learned, very necessary ones. Immediately as I did come here, I started craving for chocolate, wanting to go back to the old ways of living. There is nothing about this country that makes me want to stay here. It has taught me everything I have needed to learn and now it’s time to move on. So, I’m ignoring the anxiety feeling and paying attention to the fire within me. Or will try my hardest to ignore it, and believe me, it’s not always so easy.

 

I had to go through in my head, most things that happened while I was on my holiday – the good, the bad, the laughter, the cries. So, keeping in mind Ace of Swords – which is actually turning out to be the main card for January! – a lot will happen. I’m ready for it though. Now more than ever, I must get out of here. I have such fire to get things in motion, to reorganize my life and start acting upon my dreams. Dreams do change, and right now, I have a couple of dreams I do want to accomplish but just not entirely sure in which order. I am afraid of making them come my reality – I’m afraid of the unknown but I’m also a little afraid of what my family may think. However, it is my life that I’m living, not theirs. I have to do what I feel is the best thing for me, I have to make my own mistakes and move on from them. If I don’t, I won’t learn anything nor will I ever take any chances. If I don’t take chances, what am I living for then? I just need to have the courage to follow my heart. I need to follow my own advice of what I’ve been saying to following heart, however, it is always easier to advice someone than follow your own advice. I feel I am now ready to actually starting to live my dreams, one by one making each come true.

 

I am now ready to let go of the excess baggage I’ve been carrying these past couple of years. I’m actually now ready to make the change I have started this past summer. In fact, I want to let go of the physical things I have been keeping and bringing from one apartment to another as I have moved. I will throw out most things this coming month, only keeping a few items I still want/need. I have already thrown out so many things in my last move but not enough. I feel liberation from the old. I feel that I will let go of the final weight I carry on my shoulders everyday, making it a struggle for me to fully live. This may have been the reason why I have been feeling so anxious – I wasn’t ready to let go of it all yet, next to that I feel like I am reminded of my past in my daily life, something I cannot deal with. The wounds are still open. They have stopped bleeding but they haven’t even started healing yet. It is hard to be reminded of the past daily, especially when you want to let go and move on.

 

I have seen it first-hand how it is to live fully free from the old. This person is now blooming, they’ve become the person I had always seen there was the potential. This person is now a very confident, one who wants to make everyone laugh but still comfortable enough to be sensitive and show it occasionally. Another friend of mine has just recently moved quite far away from where they used to live, even if they’re struggling, they’re still enjoying life and the change they have decided to make. Even if I may be a few steps behind, I’m slowly feeling like I am becoming more and more myself, having the confidence to actually say that I am proud of my own creations. This is now becoming my reality. With the fire that is burning inside me, I now have a goal I’m working towards. I can now let go, or the time will come very soon. It still may be an emotional ride, somewhat hard even, if I just keep on seeing the glimpses of this, I know I will be fine. I know things will work out, and they will go the way they’re supposed to. I just need to follow my heart, and not let anyone bring me down, even if they think this may not be the right choice for me. I need to be confident and trust myself more.

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The lesson from me to you here is for you to follow your heart, do it confidently, and do not let anyone bring you down! Changes are now more and more evident, the world is changing. It is up to you how you will handle it – will you change along with it or fight against it. Let go of the old, of the excess. You are going in the right direction, you will know this if you listen to your heart. Things are going the way they’re supposed to, even if you think they’re not and even if it hurts more than you think you cannot handle. Do not fight it, let it come to you. You can cry all you want, I should know it is not an easy process – I’ve been battling since the summer! Trust me when I say, you will feel that much better, and best of all, liberated!

 

Spreading positivity

I came across this, and thought I would share it. It pretty much sums up my feelings and thoughts, I couldn’t have worded it better! Hope you enjoy it, too!

Freedom

Be free, live free

Be positive, live positive

Be loving, feel love

Be united, feel unity

 

© All rights reserved. Copyright by sarahuu, both poem and image.

Conversation Observation

As I’m sitting and listening to the conversation that is going on with my friends, I’m enjoying to be part of this. Although I am “White”, I can only imagine how it feel to feel the way they do. Being part of this, I don’t feel excluded. Being the emotional person that I am, I feel the pain, the aggravation, the frustration, the emotions that are going through them. Having to face the stereotypes, the ignorance, and the prejudices in everyday life, it is no wonder why they feel the way they do.

Although, I haven’t consciously thought of it, I feel bad. I am more privileged than they have been (or that is my assumption), their life stories are a lot harder than mine. I want to stand up, say something, I want to defend their case! The impression I got is that they feel a bondage that has been binding them to think they are not worth as much. This is when I realize that they haven’t realized this until now, either. Subconsciously they have been under-looked, if you will, by the society. Therefore making them believe that they, in fact, aren’t as smart or great as someone else. This results in that they are not living to their full potential, even if it has been subconscious.

Coming back to my color of the skin and why I used quotations, is simply because inside I don’t feel I am of any color. Inside, I am me, I am my own person. Inside I accept who I am without prejudices or conditional love. Whether or not it is shown in my outer shell. Outside I don’t look like what I imagine myself to look.

I guess the message I want to send you;
Love the person you are regardless of your outer shell!
Don’t judge a person based on their look, but really get to know what’s on the inside, as that is what really matters!

Only then can you break free of the chains that the society might have created.
Be free, live free.

This is an important lesson I have learned today. Everything starts with yourself, and I am trying to make that change within me. If there is anyone who can relate to this, even one person, I can rest my case. I have sent this message to the universe for it to be heard.

 

Cognitive Dissonance = Ignorance?

Big words on the title, huge really. Hard words to perhaps even understand, or grasp. Let me explain what I mean.
Cognitive Dissonance is more or less when you feel uncomfortable tension which comes from holding two conflicting thoughts in the mind at the same time. So you believe that you are good but do something bad, causing you to feel discomfort, which is the essence of cognitive dissonance. You then justify your behavior. For example, you are environmental friendly so you use the public transport to go to work or school. However, you have a car. When you drive your car, you justify it “oh, I don’t drive it that much” or “why should I be the victim of doing the effort of being environmental friendly when no one else is”.

This is a very touchy subject I’m going to take now but it just brings out emotions out of me, and I no longer want to be quiet about it, which I think our society has done over the decades.

There was this experiment in the 60′s done on children. Depending on the eye color (blue or brown), you were either discriminated or enforced positively. The experiment was a simple experiment of what is happening even today – racism. The blue eyed children were the ‘privileged ones’ where they got extra recess time, positive enforcement and  sorts. While the brown eye children didn’t get any privileges at all and the teacher had a negative tone in her voice. The blue eyed couldn’t play with the brown eyed. This was conditioning the children themselves to think that they’re dumber or better than the rest.

In the beginning the children were asked if there are any people underprivileged, they immediately thought of Black people and Indian (Native Americans). My first question is why do these under 10 year-old children think this? My thoughts: because the society has conditioned it in their brains from early on through the authority, mainly parents and teachers. Furthermore, more often than not even today Black people think they’re ‘dumber’ than the rest. Why? Because they have been taught to believe this. However, most cannot even say why they feel the way they do, it goes back that far.

I can say that I have grown up in a rather privileged conditions – my parents have always reinforced of what I have done, believed in me, told me I can do anything, and told me the world is open for me. This is very positive conditioning. I have followed this path. The only thing that has had a negative enforcement has been when I was bullied at school, and I have learned that his is where most of my insecurities come from, if not all.

You may be wondering what ignorance has to do with all of this. How many times do you justify what you know you’re doing wrong, that you’re not? Or tell yourself “but because the others..” or “I was asked to do this”. What many people don’t seem to realize is that media has a lot to do with this. They describe the person who has done a crime “black male, about 6 feet tall..” and eventually it will be in our heads.  The next time you see a tall black male, you feel intimidated, and you don’t even realize why you feel that way. In other words by justifying our way of thinking or doing things is reinforcing ignorance.

What do you know about your country’s government? Surely you have an idea, and the information you get is through mainstream media. How often do you hear the other side of the coin? So, do you know what exactly is going on, when you’re given only one side? I just want you to think about what impact the media has in your life but also what you truly know about your government and if they’re truly thinking of YOUR benefits or their own.

Think about TV and what comes out of the channels, mainly these days it’s rubbish. A reality show, one after another. Sexuality has been part of it the past couple of decades. Think about music videos – children look up to the artists they listen to, and yet they are very sexual videos you see. Often objectifying women. Rihanna who happens to be one of the top names in music industry, has a video out where she’s in chains, men almost violating her, which she doesn’t even seem to mind. While this video was banned in some countries, in most countries it was shown even during day time. What kind of a message does that send to children? Don’t even get me started on fashion..

It seems that because we are so busy all the time, we don’t even have the time to have a proper meal with the family anymore. In fact, now we either go to a fast food joint or get a pre-made meal from the store. All of the pre-made meals are made in a factory, containing unnatural things that we shouldn’t even have. Food is to be enjoyed from nature, how did the cavemen survive? They hunt their own food, went fishing, used nature’s own resources. As to fast-food joints, someone once told me when they lived in a country where there is a fast-food joint in every corner that they felt a bit dumber, it was as if something happened in their brain. We need good nutrition from nature.

What about education? Why do the best schools cost so much, that only the ‘elite’ can afford to go there? Why aren’t the other schools acknowledged as well?

Somehow, I get the feeling that we are being held down by our society, the government, the elite – what ever you want to call it. It feels as if they don’t want us to be well-educated or think anymore. We don’t even have jobs for uneducated people, and there are studies even to become a cleaner. Don’t you just hear the bells ringing, don’t you see the red flag flickering? Yet, we continue to obey the rules, work in places where you don’t even need to use your brain.

With all of that said, we are starting rebel against all of this. People are breaking out of negative situations. We are finally starting to wake up. However, you don’t answer to negative with negative. Nothing pisses off more than if you stay calm, enforce positivism to the people in control. Negative only reinforces negativity, and then it becomes an endless spiral. If you break out of that, stay calm and show love to everyone, even strangers, this world would be a much happier place.

I would like to end this post with the following. As small or corny as this may sound, I find it to be very accurate; everything starts with yourself. Please, start with yourself, and stand-up. Make a change within. If we all think this way, we will be together, we will be united. Nothing can stop us anymore. My final question to you is, with all that you have learned – Are you being brainwashed?