Lately I’ve been wanting to have a deeper understanding of what’s going on in this world. I watch my shows and often think to myself, what am I watching? The jokes seem weird. Some of the lines on these shows make no sense to me. The drama is almost too much to keep watching. And yet, I cannot turn it off. It’s as if I’m in trans-liked state. Being a conspiracy theorist comes to my disadvantage here as I start doubting if these thoughts are because I’ve been reading upon it. Because I question everything.
Then I read the news – not because I want to but because I have nothing else to do, I used to not read the news at all! – the negativity is just overwhelming. If it’s not someone murdering another, it’s about the tough financial situation many countries are facing, the political issues, but what strikes me personally the most, is the fact that there are a lot of protests against something. The way I look at things is why don’t you celebrate the beautiful being that you are rather than go against to protest something, to categorize yourself in a box. La vita e bella, life is beautiful, and so are you. It is time to start loving life, loving yourself, loving the nature as that is so much more fulfilling than anything else in this world.
By watching these shows that I do, and thinking to myself what am I watching, by reading the news with all the negative happenings, now more than ever I feel being pressured by media. I feel media is trying to influence how I should behave. It is a way of being controlled. Even the music I listen to, doesn’t inspire me in the least, and it used to. It used to be a way out for me, to express myself, to get lost in the beautiful melodies of instruments. Of words that would express almost exactly how I feel. These days, the songs have no meaning. It’s just about partying, and all other things that are meaningless.
I guess what I’m battling the most with at the moment is, at heart I feel free, I am free. When I see the worldly manifestations, it doesn’t match up. It is filled with negativity, things our egos need to be fed with. All of it is just lies after lies. When are the people going to wake up to what is actually going on, and what is important in this worldly manifestation we call the Mother Earth?
I choose not to be put in a box, I choose to be me and the fact that I am a beautiful earthly being. I see what’s going on, I’ve seen it for a longer time. This is my deeper understanding. And yet, my ego is telling me that I’m crazy, I’m going crazy. What if the people who have been labeled as “schizophrenic”, having “dissociative identity disorder”, or “bipolar disorder” really have seen things in different perspective, have understood what I have understood? But they have been put in these boxes because the governments don’t want us to be free, they don’t want us to understand? What if people who are “diagnosed” (read: labeled or categorized) with such diseases are easier to control by being put in medication? My what if list is endless, and I don’t want to get sidetracked here.
The point I’m trying to say is, rise above it and feel the love. Free yourself from “should” “have to” “must” for those have negative influence on you. Free yourself from labels. Rather than going against something, and protesting, find the love. Find the positive and loving aspect of things for it is much more fulfilling than anything else! Allow yourself to feel whatever it is you’re feeling, acknowledge it, accept it, and thank for it. This will help release whatever it is that you’re feeling, positive or negative.
The way I see things, the life we live has no borders. Countries, religion they are border-less. For if we love one another, there is no need to protest. There’s no need for battles or wars.