Last Night

There’s something that has been on my mind today, I haven’t been able to get it out of my mind, unfortunately. This being last night’s nightmare. At the time, I didn’t want to write anything down as I was so freaked out, I forced myself to stay up for an hour or two though. I didn’t want to continue the dream at all. Thankfully, I’ve always been able to wake myself up from the dream when things get scary and/or when I just don’t want to continue the dream. More often than not, when I do wake up myself, I fall back asleep and continue where I left off. Being afraid this might happen, I keep myself up for a little while before falling back asleep.

 

My immediate reaction as I woke up, was that something’s terribly wrong. I immediately knew the dream was significant, just not understood it (still don’t understand). The dream left me anxious and very uneasy. The last, and the only, time I had felt anything as dark, was the night (even the exact hour) Whitney Houston passed away. Although the feeling was somewhat different this time, it still left me very freaked out.

 

I guess I’m naturally an anxious person, I’ve realized. As such, I’ve had plentiful of nightmares throughout my life. Right before I left the wonderful Bulgaria, I found a Native American store where they sell Dreamcatchers. I purchased one medium size and one small one to protect me at night. I have both of them hanging on each side of the bed. I thought they would protect me from such dreams. After talking to my dear friend about it, she suggested that it may be a sign that something is out of my power. That it’d be something big  and very important. I had already felt the significance of the dream. What I personally had been afraid of was that I would have been attacked by something higher negative entity. In fact, that was one of my initial reactions upon waking up.

 

The said friend had a strange afternoon at work as well. Making me wonder what is going on, if it is something that may be more universal, not just for me. I may never find out the ‘truth’ but it definitely has given me something to think about for awhile! Furthermore, as I was talking to her I realized that yesterday, or last night for me, was the start of a New Moon Cycle. I forget the exact time when this was supposed to happen but this leaves me contemplating if this would have anything to do with the timing of such a strange dream!

Having had such a bad night I was extremely exhausted so I fell asleep for an hour or two earlier today. While I was napping, I had another dream. I felt that this dream was somehow connected with last night’s dream, as if it was trying to explain how I got to last night’s dream. This is the feeling I got anyways. However, I don’t really understand what the connection would be or how I ended up from such a completely different place to what happened last night.

 

In any case, I feel something big is in the works. I feel something happening in about 6 months time, possibly life-altering. Only time can tell what will happen in the end. Right now, I can only go with my intuition. I fully trust that. I pay so much more attention to how I feel in my dreams rather than what is happening, which has given my dreams a deeper meaning.

Your Secrets

For the most part of my life,

I’ve ignored you

There you still were

I didn’t notice you

Yet you always stayed

Your gentle slaps on my face

Your whispers in my ear

Your guidance on my feet

I’ve now realized the meaning

Of who you are, of what you do to me

You’ve never failed

To believe in me

You’ve never failed

To guide me

I am honored to have you by my side

What I’ve done in my past life

To make you stay with me

It has been the most humbling experience

To have you as my guide

So thank you, Skan

For always protecting me

Guiding me

Never leaving me

The gentle slaps of the wind

The whispers in my ear

The touch on my skin

Please don’t think I hear

© Sara Huuu

Wordless Wednesday: Sky Edition

It is time for yet another Wordless Wednesday! Last week, I gave you Airport Edition in two parts – part 1 & part 2. If you’re a frequent reader of my blog, you know that I tell you how beautiful the sky is here. Everyday, it’s like a new painting being painted on the sky. It is unbelievably gorgeous! Instead of just talking about it, this week I thought the theme for Wordless Wednesday should be the sky.

The sky inspires me so much! It is the first thing I see when I wake up. It is the first thing I look at when I go out. Over the course of time, it has truly started to play a bigger part in my life. When I think of Sky, I think of so many things but mainly what comes to my mind is the Native American people. Sky plays a big part in their cultures.

In most Creation Accounts, Earth and sky are the first things created. The sky is often personified in Native American mythology, sometimes as a Creator (Mother Earth and Father Sky) or a powerful spirit (Skan). Sky-dwelling creator figures appear in the accounts of many of the Native American cultures. Among these figures are Above-Old-Man (Wiyot), Akbaatatdia (Crow), Earthmaker (Ho-Chunk, Tohono O’odham), Es-te Fas-ta (Seminole), Kodoyanpe (Maidu), Kumush (Modoc), and Utsiti (Keres).

In many traditions, the sky is the home of powerful sky spirits. Birds were seen as intermediaries between humans and the sky spirits.They were believed to be messengers that could carry prayers to the gods and return with gods’ blessings and guidance. For this reason, Feathers were viewed as a bridge between people and the sky spirit world and were used as offerings and on Prayersticks. According to Cherokee tradition, the sky spirits – represented by Great Hawk (Tlanuwa) – were often in conflict with evil underground spirits – represent by Great Serpent (Uktena).

In the Iroquois tradition, Sky Woman, the mother of humanity, fell from the sky world. To make place for her to stand, the water animals created land. In the Chumash tradition, there is a story of a Sky Coyote, which you can read more about here.

I’ve always respected Native American people, and have been fascinated by their cultures ever since I was young. Though lately, I’ve been more and more pulled into it. I’ve been doing a bit of research of some of the cultures, as there are over 500 different cultures/tribes registered in the US, it is impossible to learn about all of them.

The sky is just a small reminder to me of everything going around me. The wind is a reminder for me to sometimes stop thinking and start listening the nature. And as I listen to the wind, as I watch the sky, I get this feeling of gratitude. Happiness takes over me. These two elements are so important to me. I find inspiration from each, daily.

Jhené Aiko Efuru Chilombo

Have you heard her music before? To me she’s a new acquaintance, even though apparently she’s been around for quite some time now. Her music is calming to me. It’s a bit different than the traditional R&B. I love unique styles. What’s also unique about her is that she’s incredibly ethnic – her mom being of Japanese, Spanish and Dominican descent, her father of African-American, Jewish, Yaqui, Choctaw, Cherokee, Navajo (in other words Native American) descent.

What do you think of her & her music?