There’s something that has been on my mind today, I haven’t been able to get it out of my mind, unfortunately. This being last night’s nightmare. At the time, I didn’t want to write anything down as I was so freaked out, I forced myself to stay up for an hour or two though. I didn’t want to continue the dream at all. Thankfully, I’ve always been able to wake myself up from the dream when things get scary and/or when I just don’t want to continue the dream. More often than not, when I do wake up myself, I fall back asleep and continue where I left off. Being afraid this might happen, I keep myself up for a little while before falling back asleep.
My immediate reaction as I woke up, was that something’s terribly wrong. I immediately knew the dream was significant, just not understood it (still don’t understand). The dream left me anxious and very uneasy. The last, and the only, time I had felt anything as dark, was the night (even the exact hour) Whitney Houston passed away. Although the feeling was somewhat different this time, it still left me very freaked out.
I guess I’m naturally an anxious person, I’ve realized. As such, I’ve had plentiful of nightmares throughout my life. Right before I left the wonderful Bulgaria, I found a Native American store where they sell Dreamcatchers. I purchased one medium size and one small one to protect me at night. I have both of them hanging on each side of the bed. I thought they would protect me from such dreams. After talking to my dear friend about it, she suggested that it may be a sign that something is out of my power. That it’d be something big and very important. I had already felt the significance of the dream. What I personally had been afraid of was that I would have been attacked by something higher negative entity. In fact, that was one of my initial reactions upon waking up.
The said friend had a strange afternoon at work as well. Making me wonder what is going on, if it is something that may be more universal, not just for me. I may never find out the ‘truth’ but it definitely has given me something to think about for awhile! Furthermore, as I was talking to her I realized that yesterday, or last night for me, was the start of a New Moon Cycle. I forget the exact time when this was supposed to happen but this leaves me contemplating if this would have anything to do with the timing of such a strange dream!
Having had such a bad night I was extremely exhausted so I fell asleep for an hour or two earlier today. While I was napping, I had another dream. I felt that this dream was somehow connected with last night’s dream, as if it was trying to explain how I got to last night’s dream. This is the feeling I got anyways. However, I don’t really understand what the connection would be or how I ended up from such a completely different place to what happened last night.
In any case, I feel something big is in the works. I feel something happening in about 6 months time, possibly life-altering. Only time can tell what will happen in the end. Right now, I can only go with my intuition. I fully trust that. I pay so much more attention to how I feel in my dreams rather than what is happening, which has given my dreams a deeper meaning.