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Cognitive Dissonance = Ignorance?

Big words on the title, huge really. Hard words to perhaps even understand, or grasp. Let me explain what I mean.
Cognitive Dissonance is more or less when you feel uncomfortable tension which comes from holding two conflicting thoughts in the mind at the same time. So you believe that you are good but do something bad, causing you to feel discomfort, which is the essence of cognitive dissonance. You then justify your behavior. For example, you are environmental friendly so you use the public transport to go to work or school. However, you have a car. When you drive your car, you justify it “oh, I don’t drive it that much” or “why should I be the victim of doing the effort of being environmental friendly when no one else is”.

This is a very touchy subject I’m going to take now but it just brings out emotions out of me, and I no longer want to be quiet about it, which I think our society has done over the decades.

There was this experiment in the 60′s done on children. Depending on the eye color (blue or brown), you were either discriminated or enforced positively. The experiment was a simple experiment of what is happening even today – racism. The blue eyed children were the ‘privileged ones’ where they got extra recess time, positive enforcement and  sorts. While the brown eye children didn’t get any privileges at all and the teacher had a negative tone in her voice. The blue eyed couldn’t play with the brown eyed. This was conditioning the children themselves to think that they’re dumber or better than the rest.

In the beginning the children were asked if there are any people underprivileged, they immediately thought of Black people and Indian (Native Americans). My first question is why do these under 10 year-old children think this? My thoughts: because the society has conditioned it in their brains from early on through the authority, mainly parents and teachers. Furthermore, more often than not even today Black people think they’re ‘dumber’ than the rest. Why? Because they have been taught to believe this. However, most cannot even say why they feel the way they do, it goes back that far.

I can say that I have grown up in a rather privileged conditions – my parents have always reinforced of what I have done, believed in me, told me I can do anything, and told me the world is open for me. This is very positive conditioning. I have followed this path. The only thing that has had a negative enforcement has been when I was bullied at school, and I have learned that his is where most of my insecurities come from, if not all.

You may be wondering what ignorance has to do with all of this. How many times do you justify what you know you’re doing wrong, that you’re not? Or tell yourself “but because the others..” or “I was asked to do this”. What many people don’t seem to realize is that media has a lot to do with this. They describe the person who has done a crime “black male, about 6 feet tall..” and eventually it will be in our heads.  The next time you see a tall black male, you feel intimidated, and you don’t even realize why you feel that way. In other words by justifying our way of thinking or doing things is reinforcing ignorance.

What do you know about your country’s government? Surely you have an idea, and the information you get is through mainstream media. How often do you hear the other side of the coin? So, do you know what exactly is going on, when you’re given only one side? I just want you to think about what impact the media has in your life but also what you truly know about your government and if they’re truly thinking of YOUR benefits or their own.

Think about TV and what comes out of the channels, mainly these days it’s rubbish. A reality show, one after another. Sexuality has been part of it the past couple of decades. Think about music videos – children look up to the artists they listen to, and yet they are very sexual videos you see. Often objectifying women. Rihanna who happens to be one of the top names in music industry, has a video out where she’s in chains, men almost violating her, which she doesn’t even seem to mind. While this video was banned in some countries, in most countries it was shown even during day time. What kind of a message does that send to children? Don’t even get me started on fashion..

It seems that because we are so busy all the time, we don’t even have the time to have a proper meal with the family anymore. In fact, now we either go to a fast food joint or get a pre-made meal from the store. All of the pre-made meals are made in a factory, containing unnatural things that we shouldn’t even have. Food is to be enjoyed from nature, how did the cavemen survive? They hunt their own food, went fishing, used nature’s own resources. As to fast-food joints, someone once told me when they lived in a country where there is a fast-food joint in every corner that they felt a bit dumber, it was as if something happened in their brain. We need good nutrition from nature.

What about education? Why do the best schools cost so much, that only the ‘elite’ can afford to go there? Why aren’t the other schools acknowledged as well?

Somehow, I get the feeling that we are being held down by our society, the government, the elite – what ever you want to call it. It feels as if they don’t want us to be well-educated or think anymore. We don’t even have jobs for uneducated people, and there are studies even to become a cleaner. Don’t you just hear the bells ringing, don’t you see the red flag flickering? Yet, we continue to obey the rules, work in places where you don’t even need to use your brain.

With all of that said, we are starting rebel against all of this. People are breaking out of negative situations. We are finally starting to wake up. However, you don’t answer to negative with negative. Nothing pisses off more than if you stay calm, enforce positivism to the people in control. Negative only reinforces negativity, and then it becomes an endless spiral. If you break out of that, stay calm and show love to everyone, even strangers, this world would be a much happier place.

I would like to end this post with the following. As small or corny as this may sound, I find it to be very accurate; everything starts with yourself. Please, start with yourself, and stand-up. Make a change within. If we all think this way, we will be together, we will be united. Nothing can stop us anymore. My final question to you is, with all that you have learned – Are you being brainwashed?

It’s now December. Can you believe it? It seems like yesterday it was the beginning of the year, and I should be preparing for the coming year. This will be a bit more personal blog than what I normally write, so please bare with me.

As the year is coming to an end, a lot of changes has happened to me personally. Have you noticed that a lot of people are going through somewhat bigger changes in their lives? Whether it is breaking off a long-term relationship of their partner, moving to another place even to a whole new country, or even starting something new like a study. I have been in a bad place, getting out of that situation in the beginning of the year, although it was hard for me, I needed to make that change. All the while I did have the best internship at the beginning of the year, which I’m so grateful for!

For the summer, I went back to my hometown to spend the whole summer with my parents and my family. This was the best summer for a long time! I met up with old friends, family members I hadn’t seen for years. It was a beautiful summer, with wonderful memories made. That was the time for me when I could truly take my time to focus on myself, and my healing process (as selfish as that sounds). In the beginning, I was so exhausted that I slept for two weeks straight. At the end, I didn’t need as much sleep anymore, I was a complete different person even my parents said so. I went back to the old me again, the ever-optimistic-and-positive person.

After summer, I was back to studying and to the country I don’t care for all that much. Immediately, I felt the negative energies, busy-ness, and stress soaking into me like a sponge. I was back to where I was in the beginning of the summer. I thought I wouldn’t be able to take it like that anymore. And I didn’t. I’ve learned to cope with it. I have my methods and my own ways of detaching myself, keeping my anxiety away. It hasn’t been an easy process. Sometimes I get sucked back into it again. The only difference now, is that I sort of know how to get out.

So, I’ve been changing. I’ve been growing up. I’ve been learning. But most of all, I have been in the process of healing myself from my past wounds that even takes back to my childhood. It’s a slow, and even painful process. It is something I need to go through though. This year, I have also delved into spirituality more, using my tarot, meditating, and learning a little bit about crystals and stones.

I don’t know what next year will bring, for me personally but also for the universe. No one does. All I know is that I’m going back to the more loving being that I once was. If I had it my way, I would hug every stranger on each corner. That’s the kind of loving person I am, call it naivete if you will.
As this year was a year of changes, I have a feeling that next year might be a year of love and unity.

I would like to finish by saying that within 5-10 years, if I am still alive in this world, I want to be living in one of the Caribbean islands. Not entirely sure where yet, but it is my dream to go there. Within that time, I have a couple of things that I want to achieve but they’re way too personal to share them here. I feel more at ease with this decision, and I know I’m working towards this goal.

Never underestimate the power of your imagination! Never underestimate the power of dreaming!

Is love an illusion?

Many things in life is an illusion, some even say that love is one of them. I do think that some things are illusions, such as anxiety, being busy, constantly having to hurry from one place to another, stress – these are all man made feelings. Love isn’t. Love is not an illusion. In fact, love is so powerful that it unites us! It is out of love that we have held various different events for raising awareness or raising money for a country that has been through major disasters, it is out of love that we come together to be united, it is out of love that we try to find similarities with one another. If you have thought that love is an illusion, think again. Why do you do the things you do? Why do you listen to your favorite  band or artist? Why do you see your friends? Why do you go on a date? Why do you do anything really? You do them out of love.

If you feel that you’re trapped in a place where you don’t want to be – be it a country, a job, a study, or any other situation – surround yourself with love. Find the beauty, find the love out of every situation. Sure you can wallow in negativity every once in a while, but don’t let it take control. Tell yourself, this is enough and ground yourself. Most people forget to breathe, they forget to stop, they forget to listen to the inner voice. When you forget to do this, you feel disconnected and not centered. Whenever I feel that way, I try to ground myself. I put my feet on the ground, so that the whole foot touches the ground or floor, I close my eyes and take at least 5 deep breaths. This helps me so much, and it only takes a minute. This is a rather powerful exercise when you do it correctly, when you’re completely still and don’t think of anything!


Most of the people listen to their head rather than their heart. This is wrong. Head is attached to intelligence and your ego. Ego is based on fears, anxieties, well basically anything negative. You should always listen to heart. This is hard, especially since we have been thought to follow our heads, we’re supposed to study and have a diploma, we’re supposed to work to be able to pay the bills. This all is man-made. We used to trade things instead of pay money. I like that concept much better, I’ve never liked the concept of money!

In my previous post, I said I was wondering why I feel such love towards Caribbean countries. I think I just got my answer – it is because they don’t worry, they don’t stress. The pace of life is much slower, allowing them to enjoy every moment of their lives. That is what I’ve been craving for lately. I think deep down, that is my home. I must have been from there in my past life or something. This is not the first time Caribbean has called me. I feel a strong, a very strong connection, to go there and I don’t know why. I mean, it must be partly what I just said but I feel it’s bigger than that. That is where my heart is longing. I should follow my heart but my head is stopping me. Right now, I will stay where I am. However, I will make the best of what I have here and try to enjoy each moment. Positive thoughts, but most of all, l-o-v-e will get you where you want to go. Hatred and war/arguments will only embrace negativity.

So, in conclusion, love is not an illusion. Love is a feeling that unites us all. After all, we do live in a small world. World that we must take care of. Love one another.


How could I have missed this?

My favorite artist’s song, Christina Aguilera, had a B-Side to her exactly 9-year-old Stripped album. The song is called I Will Be. Before I heard it, I already judged it. As soon as I hit play, I thought to myself, great another one of these ballads. As the song progressed, I listened to it, and listened to its meaning. The song grew on me immediately. The words melted my heart. It’s exactly how I have been feeling lately. It is no wonder why this album has been the favorite album by Christina to so many. Everyone can I find a little piece in them in her lyrics. At that time this 20-something-year-old had been working on her music since her teens. This was the album where her voice, her words, and most of all her talent was heard. It might have been very provocative era for Christina but this was the only way to get attention and her voice to be heard. She wanted to break out of the expected way of doing things, of the Mickey Mouse era.

 

Mmm…

The world seems so cold
When I face so much all alone
A little scared to move on
And knowing how fast I have grown

And I wonder just where I fit in
Oh the vision of life in my head
Oh yes

I will be
Strong on my own
I will see through the rain
I will find my way
I will keep on
Traveling this road
Till I finally reach my dream
Till I’m living, and I’m breathing
My destiny, yeah yeah

I can’t let go now
Even when darkness surrounds
But if I hold on, yeah
I will show the world
All the things that you never expected to see
From little old me, this Pittsburgh girl

And I wonder just where my place is
Close my eyes and I remind myself this
Oh yeah yeah

I will be
Strong on my own
I will see through the rain
I will find my way
I will keep on
Traveling this road
Till I finally reach my dream
Till I’m living, and I’m breathing
My destiny, ohh

It comforts me
Ooh it keeps me
Alive each day of my life
Always guiding me
Providing me
With the hope I desperately need

Well I gotta believe
There’s something out there meant for me
Oh I get on my knees
Praying I will receive
The courage to grow and the faith to know

That I will be
Strong on my own
I will see through the rain
I will find my way
I will keep on
Traveling this road
Till I finally reach my dream
Till I’m living, and I’m breathing
My destiny

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