There’s something that has been on my mind for a minute now. I keep researching it over and over again. It keeps coming back to me, in one form or another.
I first got acquainted with the concept of Twin Souls or Twin Flames a couple of years ago. A thought he had met his a few times. He was longing to find his before I knew anything about it. Last summer however, I realized I’ve been looking for my Twin as well. For as long as I can remember, I’ve felt as if I don’t belong. I’ve felt as if I was supposed to be a twin to someone but I wasn’t born as such. I realized that when A had a dream where he saw a reflection of me, but she wasn’t exactly me. Then all of a sudden it’s like everything fit into place. Since then, I’ve been trying to find my Twin. I’ve been trying to put things together as to where they might be, who they might be, etc. I now realize that this no longer important. I’m learning to communicate on another level, on an energy level where you don’t need words. Once when I meditated, I got a door shut to my face, and said ‘what are you doing here? You’re not supposed to be here!’ I couldn’t breathe, I felt as if I was about fall from the stool that was already on the ground. Having A as my narrator, he started to wake me up and before he even got to 2, we heard a clear knocking, knock-knock-knock. We thought it couldn’t be anyone on our doorstep as it was already so late. He came back upstairs. There was the knock again, knock-knock-knock, the same one. A got a bit spooked, I knew it wasn’t anything bad as I didn’t feel any negative vibes. Since that try, I haven’t tried to meditate again. It got me off my game for awhile.
A, however, found his Twin Flame awhile back. I had to give him his distance to get to know more about this person and what their dynamics are in this dimension/lifetime. I did just that. Through this process, it has put me in a little bit of a weird situation, more so than anyone else, I can tune into this person’s emotions quite well. I start feeling what they’re feeling, and more often than not tears start falling down my cheek. Being an empath, is not always easy. Mind you, I don’t know this person all that well, I’ve only had one time being alone with them. It surprises me every time I feel their somewhat suppressed energies.
Something stings inside me when I think of their relationship. Although it is not the easiest, at least they fully well know each other. Since last year, I’ve been desperately wanting to get to know mine – even if it’d mean hard work or looking in the mirror, and seeing your own faults/insecurities. What do I still have to learn that is keeping me from meeting my long-lost Twin? I’ve stopped obsessing about this but at times it comes and bothers me. Universe has been very generous with me and provided almost everything I’ve asked, and for that I’m humbled, grateful and appreciative!! Above all, I just want to meet mine, and I hope this will happen sooner than later.
Being on the hunt for something has taken a lot of patience on my part. I’m not usually the most patient person. Even though it feels like a lifetime of finding her, it has really been a nano second in the Universal consciousness. I can get quite frustrated when I find out something new about her, the situation, or whatever. It is only just a new piece of information that I don’t know what to do about it. However, I feel that I will soon find her as I feel myself working on myself, preparing for when we can actually meet up.
I keep getting that I should not focus too much on finding my Twin but rather working on myself. I will find her when I’m ready, when we’re both ready. I know I’ve been attracted to the Caribbean islands/Polynesia mainly because of her. There is something about that, and I keep getting assurance of that. Now fear and worry kicks in when I think of how on earth would I ever even be able to afford to go to Tahiti! As always, it is not up to me – well not totally, I still need to and should work on myself – but to the Universe. It has provided so many things for me so far. I should just surrender to its will and know that everything will be provided for me when the time is right.